Geeking Out with Cassiopeia

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Welcome

Hi. Thanks for stopping by. I’m completely new at this blogging thing, but have been wanting to try it for years.

I’m a 36 year old woman from Denmark which is why there will probably be a few typos here and there, bear with me please.

I love gaming, painting and all things geeky and cute

Been struggling with mental health issues since 16 years old. I have a lot to say and I can get quite emotional. It’s important for me to break down taboos which is why I will always be honest and straight forward.

XO Cassiopeia

Progress?

Doing better

Tears still here though

The gates are open

I’ll let it all flow

I’m going under

What’s up is down

Hopefully

It’s not the time I drown

The inside job

I’m a master at building walls

Every time I get hurt; I build them even higher

It seems there is no limit

Not even the sky

Walls don’t help, if the attack is an inside job though

The only thing they do is keep help out

Leave you behind feeling lonely and broken

Slowly bleeding out in the dark

Getting out of Bed

The bridge of self-hatred is between me and the world

I must cross it while dodging arrows from bad thoughts, that tell me I’m worthless and not strong enough to go outside

It often takes several tries

Sometimes the bridge collapses and I need a few hours to rebuild

With arrows stuck in my fragile skin, I send a text to the person I had made plans with explaining how my ground just broke underneath me, then silence my phone and turn it away so I can’t see the light from incoming messages and calls

The imaginary texts back are loud as hell anyway

The arrows are poisonous

Every vein gets infected quickly and I need a second to recharge

I go back to bed, defeated, anxiety rising